happy, yet miserable

[Ichii]

i'm a little scared to write this.... .x.;

for some reason, some days i'm feeling really happy-go-lucky, and other days i just feel so miserable my heart aches. reason why? well.... happy because i'm really happy to have Ty in my life and i'm glad i found someone that i can really love every part of.... and miserable because i really wish he was here with me, and i also really miss my home in Iowa. .x.;

i just.... hate the school i'm currently in. the friends i have here are okay, but i just want my old friends back. Ames, Iowa is my home, after being there for 4 and a half years, it hurts leaving all my friends behind.... i haven't seen anyone or even BEEN to Ames since July.... my mom keeps saying we'll visit "next weekend" or "the weekend after that", but she always makes up an excuse.... i miss 8th grade, and i just wish i could go home. i've.... also even cut myself again. .x.;; i don't want to feel like this, i just want to go home.... the only place i really have any friends anymore is online, and when mom grounds me from the computer, it leaves me completely alone, and it just makes me wish Ty was with me that much more. .x.;

anyways, i've really been needing to write this, everything's been bottled up and i just makes me want to scream. >x<;;

*goes and hides in a hole*

[mewuriko]

don't worry about it at least it's better than what happened to me..........

[ღ†Aokii†ღ]

Oh Imouto-chan *snuggle* I know it's been hard and I wish more than anything I could help you get back home! It makes me sick to hear you talk about cutting yourself! Please, please don't do it again!! You have Ty in you life and you don't want him to worry about you, though I know he already does! *cuddle* I am always here for you and I understand the grounded thing.

Keep your chin up hun! Things have a way of working out in the end, no matter how long the road may be! You have too much a head of you to be feeling like this!!! *snuggle* I hope you get into that happy-go-lucky mode and stay in it for a good long time! You deserve only the best Ichii!!! =3

[Razuberri ♣]

ICHII-CHAN!!!!!!! *huggles* Ima soo sorry that your not so very happy at so points in time! I also moved away from my home town not really long ago. D': I still miss all my friends, and where I live I hate it mostly, so I mostly understand whta you're going through. ;o; But no cuttin' please, that makes Razu very sad. TT_TT SO just remember your lovely Ty, and eat some cake!! *stuffs cake in your face* ^.~ Ignore me.

[Ichii]

i'm doing a little better. but now my mom is threatening to take away my phone as well as the computer. the computer is okay, i'm used to it, but my PHONE is another story. she's not taking away my phone, she's taking away Ty. he's the only one who ever texts me anymore. to be honest i don't think i'd be able to deal without Ty, with as attached as i've gotten to him. =//x//=; *hides*

although i do utterly adore the friends i have on here, you have no idea how happy i got when i get on the computer to talk. (i guess the whole situation with the mafia has left me in a giddy mood lately. if you have no idea what i'm talking about, check my pixels thread.)

[Mew Ringo]

Piiiii? *gives Ichii a 'get better' glomp*

It's amazing that you worked up enough courage to type this up. Dun be afraid of your feelings, we're happy to listen to you and your rants.

This will probably sound reeeeeallly stupid to you, being in the situation your in (and Gawd, does everything you posted sounds sucky!), but...
Maybe you should get some professional help.... *waits for Ichii to laugh out loud at this* Your problem is really serious, and nuuuu body likes seeing you in this state.

I'm glad you're feeling at least a little better. A little can be a big start. ^-^
Also, I'd be happy to text you... (But then again I'm sure you're not thrilled to get spazzy texts from an annoying 12 year old...)

Anyways, tell your Mum that if she takes away yer phone Ringo-chan iz gonna hunt her down! ^w^

[Ichii]

Nov 30, 2009 16:25:49 GMT -5 Mew Ringo said:

Piiiii? *gives Ichii a 'get better' glomp*

It's amazing that you worked up enough courage to type this up. Dun be afraid of your feelings, we're happy to listen to you and your rants.

This will probably sound reeeeeallly stupid to you, being in the situation your in (and Gawd, does everything you posted sounds sucky!), but...
Maybe you should get some professional help.... *waits for Ichii to laugh out loud at this* Your problem is really serious, and nuuuu body likes seeing you in this state.

I'm glad you're feeling at least a little better. A little can be a big start. ^-^
Also, I'd be happy to text you... (But then again I'm sure you're not thrilled to get spazzy texts from an annoying 12 year old...)

Anyways, tell your Mum that if she takes away yer phone Ringo-chan iz gonna hunt her down! ^w^

Actually, I've had numerous people tell me that, and maybe they're right, but my mom doesn't know I cut myself, nor will she find out.

And I wouldn't saying you're annoying Ringo-chan, you're one of my best friends and I'd love to have your number so we could talk more. But do you have free texting? I wouldn't want you to waste your money.