Dead Inside...I give up

[Ichigo☆]

You guys REALLY wanted to know what was bothering me earlier.............well you're in for it now......welcome to Ichigo's angsty mind...watch your step so you don't fall and get caught up in the webs of hurt and confusion...*might as well just label self an emo now kthxbai*

Well my Mom pulled me into her room last night for a looooooooong talk....everything she said was like knives....I have to grow up, and all but abandon things online...........I've only got until my next birthday to find some kind of job with insurance before I get kicked off the family insurance......with how often I get sick this is BAD, it might as well just sentence me to death....then on top of that, I CAN'T find a job cause EVERY ****ing place I apply at wants EXPERIENCED workers!......SO I tried to work with Google for a 7 day trial....SCAM. They took $70 from my Mom's bank account before my trial was even over....it's a genuine job but you have to HAVE an income ALREADY for them to invest in...or else you don't make any money..Before that I had a humiliating first interview that made me wish I could die on the spot...and since all the failures I've experienced I've been depressed....sit on the internet most of the day just talking with friends on MSN to make me forget....it's better than drinking or drugs anyways....and irritatingly I've fallen in love online AGAIN. And I'm not gonna do **** about it this time....the guy found out my feelings because I was stupid, but that's as far as I'm going unless he comes out here...I'm sick of feeling like a failure......I can only do productive things online, and there's no salary there.......*sigh* and so because I've become dependent on certain friends and people online....I've been called addicted....and so my Mom gave me a really depressing choice.....I can fingure out what the hell I'm gonna do with my life by September 1st........or I'm going back to the hell hole called school............you'll never see me again if that happens....I'm NOT good with people IRL...and I haven't been in a public school since 3rd grade....I'll get lost...and lose myself more than I already have....so......yeah....like I said....my Mom killed the person you knew and just left her remains...v.v....

...I seriously...just....give up.

[Ichii]

Nee-sama.... I know I can't relate to your problems, being as young as I am, but don't enter the emo world like I have, you might be depressed, but don't. I don't want you to start hurting yourself, I've been there, I've done that, it sucks. I don't know how to help you with employment or anything, so I guess I can't say much.... sorry, Nee-sama. .////.; I wish I could give you a real hug right now, though it probably wouldn't do much. Dx>

[ღ†Aokii†ღ]

Oh Zozo *megasnuggle* I am so sorry! I don't know what else to say! God this is awful!

So have you thought about college? They have colleges online -so you don't have to deal with people and all that-

September 1, danm that's not cool!

Oh Zozo you fell for him? *snuggle* I'm sorry but also happy for you!!!

Interviews suck! what kind of jobs have you applied for? Retail? Tried like a hardware store -I think that would be fun personally all that stuff they have- I swear if you find your way down here I will so have my grandmother hire you!!! *snuggle* then again I don't know what kind of insurance policy those places have....*ponders* I would look in your local news paper -if you have one- for job listings.

Addicted to the internet is better than drugs or alcohol like you said! Oh that just burns me up!!

Zozo know that you are not nor will ever be a failure! Yes there may be a few things you stumble with, a few things that don't work out right. But that's life. A failure is created when you don't try to help yourself, when you give up. You have to keep pushing forward! I (and everyone on this site) believes in you!

*snugglehuggle* I don't know what to say Zozo, but I am so so SOOOO sorry!!! I so wish I could pull you into a real hug and help you and be there with you!!!

[Patty-cake ☼]

Aww i'm sorry Heather! :[
Isaac had SO much trouble finding a job too! He never even got a call back.
Young adults every where are having trouble finding jobs, it's almost impossible in this economy.

My mom wants me to start looking once we move, but a job behind a regester is totally not for me! So i'm going to look for behind the scenes jobs or odd jobs.

What you can do is ask your mom if you can volunteer somewhere and then look for a job, that way you can get the experiance you need. :3

[Mew Ringo]

No, no, no! This can't be happening! I must have read your post wrong... *rereads post* That is AWFUL! Give yer mom's number, so I can b!tch her out! My brother's your age, he's living at home without a steady job, so why can't you do the same?! Grrrrrr........... *yells at local grocery store* GIVE HER THE DANM JOB, OR ELSE I WILL FUCKING K!LL YOU!

Also, as Princess-chan said, DON'T look to knives as the answer.
Usually I'd say, 'We're here if you need to talk...', but by the looks of it, you might not be able to talk to us anymore...

But you just CAN'T leave us now, I'm almost internet legal! You can't just give up this site, or your friends. Give your mom a piece of your mind, or I shall find a way to!

::very pissed Ringo::

[Ero-Sennin]

Well... Honestly.

Do NOT resort to the cutting/some form of hurting yourself. It doesn't work. I've done it.

Maa, why don't you look in the newspaper for job listings(If applicable)?

Best advice I can give right now.

[Razuberri ♣]

*tries to think of way to start the post, but fails* WELL....

Never ever ever go to cutting or that kind of stuff, it makes everything worst in the end....
OK, I've haven't needed to find a job, so I can't help with where you should look but i just know one thing though, don't give up! theres a job out there, and its waiting for you!
But, the only thing I really can relate to is parents who are asshole(OK, so your may be assholes, but from what I see they are right now.). My parents yell at me that I'm addicted to the internet everyday, and tell me when I'm old enough to get a job, that they are just going kick me out of the house, and more crap like that. Know, I know that i guess your mom might just expect more from you because your older or something like that, but kicking your kid of your insurance policy because you can(no matter what the reason).... Well, just remember that your mom don't make you who you are and they should never decide were your life is going, so don't give up.
>//////< there, my cheesy advice is given..... *hugs* just try your hardest OK?

[chocolate]

First of all..wait I'm not even going to go into that >w> Anyways, don't hurt yourself. I don't know how people could withstand the pain =3= but why not hurt someone el- Uhh....you didn't read that from me -shifty eyes- Don't hurt yourself, don't degrade yourself because of other people it's not worth the pain and everything else you have to go through.

Now about the job, find something that relates to you. Something you have in common with, something that you love and go from there. I don't understand the insurance thing so I can't help you there o.o But the experience worker thing. Don't give up because they say that. If you really want the job continue to go after it. You could say that you learn fast (do you?) That you are a hard worker and willing to learn. You must express those feelings sincerely that gets through to them. -pats- After that it's up to them and have faith and confidence for the things you do.

I'm going to move out when I turn 18, move in somewhere with some friends (we're already planning this) we all are going to get jobs though I already work if you count working in your family store o.o So I'm suggestion to gather yourself and mold yourself together and get yourself out there. Do not be afraid just cautious. Open your eyes to your surroundings don't sleep. <--not literally

I really hate when you start to like someone over the internet. I really hate it. -sighs- Uh man I'm going to cry again. >.<

Hopefully I helped somewhat or even just a little bit.